juz another face in the crowd...

Coulda Woulda Shoulda:
you love to grab lifes experiences and not let them
go by...you know you would regrett things if
you didnt take chances in life and love


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You have a peaceful heart. serenity, calm and peace
are very important to you. You always keep a
cool head and find overly emotional people
difficult to understand. When you fall in love
it's quiet, sweet, and deep.


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Gay Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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You are mostly Meloncholy! Meloncholy's have a bit
of a bad reputation as being moody and easily
pissed off. In truth, meloncholy people are
just those that are more in tune with small
details and picking up on subtle things. They
are more sensitive to emotion and creativity.
Most likely, if you piss off a meloncholy, it's
because you weren't being careful with your
word or the way you acted.


Which Personality Temperment Are You?
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You're Soroity Slut Barbie! You're easy and you're
really cheesy! Have fun with the entire
football team.


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Water


What kind of Pokemon are you?
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its been ages since i last caught pokemon on television. i used to be an ardent fan of misty, ash & rock (if i remember their names accurately) & their weekly adventures... i think my younger bro has all the vcds of the first season. in retrospect, i think pokemon was the vanguard of japanese anime which had successfully penetrated the western cartoon market, thus paving the way for other jap anime wif the similar formula of ultra hip teens/kids on a quest wif cutesy animal creatures as company. Digimon, monster rancher etc etc and all the gamut of "monster" cartoons comes to mind.. haha. who can forget pikachu, the yellow rodent capable of electrocuting the bad guys to the color of burnt charcoal but never quite killing anyone and charmander, psyduck et al?? haha.. anyway, cartoons have a way of cheering me up so unlike the comedy theater sitcoms of suria channel which never fail to aggravate me wif their lame, contrived jokes & overdone slapstick humor... was watching such an episode yesterday at my aunt's place cuz my mum & i decided to drop by after my commencement (we "borrowed" my cuzzin to accompany my mum)... and while we're on That subject, it wasnt so bad afterall though i, onthewhole, cud have made do wifout the experience altogether... and NO; we didnt throw our mortarboards into the air. It's much too heavy and could probably cause pernicious injury if it were to strike sumone's head by accident.

actually, i've got loads to say but am running out of time... gotta get ready cuz hafta visit my bro at the hospital again... nobody came down to see him at all yesterday so i guess i'd pop in today to see how he's doing... poor thing~

Midnight - You are a deep thinker, always searching
for answers and never quite at home. You are
very contemplative, and enjoy being alone with
your thoughts.


When are you?
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au contraire, it is Far frm midnite as i begin blogging rite now. i know that it wud be so much more appropriate if i had done so last nite, wouldnt it? or at least in the wee hours of the morning but unfortunately, sumthing happened which prevented me frm doin so. as wif all "sumthing happened" things, it was rather sudden, and thus, i was too much off-kilter to even Consider bloggin lest i use this irresistibly vast amount of space to vent my frustrations. however, having said all that, i'm not really in a sound state of mind rite now becuz, after sum painstaking mental arithmetic, i've discovered that i only had six hours of sleep. *shock*horror* LOL. TO function wif optimum efficacy, i wud normally require at LEast 7hours of uninterrupted sleep but i couldnt POssibly doze off rite NOw... not wif that racket of sumone trimming the grass downstairs!! ArgH!

my younger bro's doctor called yesterday in the afternoon & i finally had an opportunity to hear things frm the horse's mouth, so to speak. I must say, it was rather reassuring despite the depressing contents of aforesaid conversation. Consequently, i Hurriedly Showered & rushed down to sgh (it was almost 1pm) and was Rewarded for my impulsiveness by denied entry into the wards (becuz visiting hours were over. DUH). thus feeling lame, i spent the next couple of hours getting intimate wif the paper while waiting fer the next visiting period at 5pm... :)

Dropped by school last nite after leaving the hospital and seriously, seeing the familiar buildings again made my heart ache sumwhat. my sole purpose was to clear my locker (once & for all) and hence was Really not up to orienteering chacha about the place. (sorry about that old chap~) its funny cuz i've never really been in school that late at nite b4 (it was halfpast eight) during the term holz and the place had a serene and peaceful atmosphere so unlike the hustle & bustle of routine school hours. If ONly i had school to look forward to.. things wud have been so much simpler then. Nevertheless, i've come to a crossroads in my life & i MUST go on. may god bless the rest of my journey. AMen :)

tomorrow is my supposed Big day but am looking forward to it wif ominous dread. what is there to be jubilant about anyway?? i feel as if i'm on death row... compounded by current situation, its all so meaningless anyhow. so many things to do: need to pick up my pants, iron my robe, search fer the invites... yaddayaddayadda. i had a presentiment that attending commencement was a Huge mistake & i have only my own self to say "i told you so" to. so pathetic.

will be going down to sgh wif my mum again later but this time, wif both my bratty nieces in tow. hopefully, they wont misbehave... but am mite glad fer their company. spending lonely hours at a hospital can be a tad too stifling even fer my morbid tastes...

these days, i hardly ever get any peace of mind... sumtimes i imagine that i'm on this vast open plain all by myself wif nuthing but a clear azure blue sky above me and a wide expanse of soft green grass at my feet.. and there is Not a sound except fer the breeze whistling in my ear. is there such a place in Sg, where i can find solace & sanctuary? this Life is so asphyxiating...


"...The meanest patient, yes even the very lowest, is allowed some say in the matter of his own prescription.. Thereby he defines his humanity..." - Virginia to Leonard.

---- excerpt frm The Hours. (yep, that movie again)

"... but it's not her sorrow... she's outside of it and she couldn't come close enough to my heart to help me. It's our sorrow; yours and mine... " - Anne to Marilla.

---- excerpt from Anne Of Green Gables, by Lucy Maud Montgomery.

was planning to do a blog update much earlier (i.e. a couple of days back) but it juz slipped off my mind. had a pretty busy week on the whole but as is the norm wif me now, i cant really recall much of wat i've been up to.

last wednesday: went to sgh wif my mum in the evening.

thursday: went down to sgh in the afternoon by myself and then met chacha after that.

friday: sgh again wif mum. was there all the way frm 2pm to around 830pm at nite.

saturday: met up wif chacha b4 he left for work; then joined zechiel n dopez at lot1 fer a chitchat. later on, spent a nite of debauchery wif cuzzie dearie & a few others.. LOL

sunday: slept in (which is the best thing to do on a sunday) and then followed mum to sgh...

monday, which is today: havent really decided what to do. was hunting down my fonebill last nite and finally found it under my bed wif the rest of my "trash." will probably drop by post office later n pay up... the divas gang are now in spinellis already... but now i'm vacillating about whether to go join them in routine "bumming" or stay home and give my room a thorough spring-clean.. sumthing which it is badly in need of. on the one hand, i havent met the whole gang fer quite sum time now and i kinda miss them but on the other, am dreading boring trip to town all by myself-ish... why am i such an indecisive idiot!?!?!?!

You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!


What's Your Magic Power?
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My life closed twice before its close;
It yet remains to see
If Immortality unveil
A third event to me,

So huge, so hopeless to conceive,
As these that twice befell.
Parting is all we know of heaven,
And all we need of hell.

---- XCVI, by Emily Dickinson.

PS: i dunno why that poem had been in my mind lately... i went thru it a couple of semesters ago as part of my American Lit module.

watched alot of television last nite.. some gurmitsingh kiddy comedy, splitends, tv:ism... other than that, nothing really interesting. will be goin down to sgh again later. hopefully, my mum will finally sign the papers to have the biopsy over and done with. sneaked a peek at the hospital bill yesterday and they didnt really look very pleasant... thankgod my bro's an nsf so its all mostly subsidised. still, am not looking forward to the day when he finally completes his national service & we wud have to fork out full amount fer his routine medical expenses...

i personally do not think that i see the world in "neutral colors" as the results of the latest quiz show. i dont think i am at peace wif myself. the turmoil within my heart is ineffable...

Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.

Made by
Sara


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woke up in the afternoon juz now wif a horrid headache. i couldnt really sleep last nite... spent the longest time tossing and turning in bed. didnt go visit my bro today cuz Along (my eldest bro) went downin the afternoon while my sis needs to settle the hospital bills at the sgh office so dat means she'll be covering the evening visiting hours. while we're on the subject of bills, i've yet to pay my Hp bill BUt i've forgotten where i placed it... Damn.. shud really try to tidy up my room abit and make sure evrything's in its rightful place but kinda lazeeee (as usual). however, i did manage to put my bro's cd collection in order after discovering he misplaced his meteora disc and i must say he is such a slob! his cds were all over the place... and the discs werent even in their proper casings.

hmmm... this last sunday, i went to sgh to visit my bro and he seemed to be in a grumpy mood. who wouldnt be if u're faced wif the prospect of being stuck in a hospital room til the end of the week at least?? well... poor thing!~ anywayz, after visiting hours were over, i met a couple of my buddies at imm. didnt do anything much and apparently, all of us sumhow werent in the best of spirits so we got out of jeast area pretty soon.

monday (yesterday) i got up pretty late and then went down again to sgh in the evening to accompany my mom. got back by around 10pm and it was raining rather heavily at my place. Cool~

so today is basically a stay-at-home day.. not that i'm complaining. i'm more of a home-boy anyway... i think i will log off fer now but will be back soon enuff to blog as soon as i gather my thoughts abit... thus, in the words of dear old arnie.. "i'll be BAck!"

the sound of the karung-guni man beeping his horn frm below, birds chirping cheerily outside your window, hardly any cars passing thru the streets, the neighbourhood seems so serene & peaceful... yep, its a sunday morning and i believe this is the first time i didnt sleep the morning away... :) since it rained practically the whole of yesterday, there's a certain chill hangin in the air today and evrything seems... WET. i seem to have a slight hangover or headache although obviously, i didnt drink last nite... feel drained sumhow... ala bruce banner after spending the nite thrashing half the town as the hulk. hehehe

i had an unproductive afternoon yesterday but in the evening, accompanied my mum to sgh to visit my bro again. i didnt get to see him this time cuz of stupid hospital regulations and staff were damn rigid about them... so i had to spend more than two hours reading the paper in the foodcourt. Lovely rite?? i never had an opportunity to get to know the saturday straits times better before... :P

will of course be spending the afternoon at the hospital again. dun think my mum wud wana go down so i'll be alone and i'd get to spend sum quality time wif my bro.. .like as IF~ i hardly cud get along wif him on normal days! mum isnt too happy about the papers she gotta sign so she's avoiding the hospital for now but it's really all so stupid and foolish... anywayz, watthehell do u wear to the hospital on sundays?? argh! --- i need a haircut!!

thingstodo; gotta clean my room, have a shower, have breakfast and get ready fer sgh trip. on second thought... better skip breakfast cuz i'm bound to be running abit late.. LOL

Okay...you're really starting to think that you're
the Hulk. That's a little scary. You could
possibly turn into the green thing if the rage
takes over you. You may tend to get a little
out of control at times and might want to ease
yourself at times. Don't take it too far
though. You may lose your mind!


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i caught the hulk a couple of weeks back but i wouldnt recommend the movie to anyone unless 1) he likes movies based on comicbook characters 2) he is a rabid fan of Ang Lee, or 3) he is a rabid fan of Jennifer Connelly/ Eric Bana (and other underrated B-listers turned good) Fortunately (or is it unfortunately??) I am all three so Off i went to watch it at gvboonlay on a moment's whim and i was... disappointed sumwhat by the overall tardiness of the movie. But then, i knew that i'd die of curiosity if i didnt manage to catch it at the cinemas. LOL. However, i cant really decide if its really a bad movie all the way or pretty Not bad... Chicago tribune described it as "..big, exciting, opulently designed, gorgeously shot and blessed with a top cast" which is entirely true whereas new york times deemed it ""...incredibly long, incredibly tedious, incredibly turgid." which is completely true as well... Go Figure! my rating: 3.5/5 stars. (wif plaudits for jennifer connelly for being such a beautiful, tragic heroine & ang lee for even attempting to direct such a monster of a movie..)

wouldnt it be so cool to be able to just lose your temper and vent your pent-up frustrations on all those around you wif nary a conscience and not able to recollect anything about it afterwards??? muahaha. If only i could though... its terrible being human i think; u always need to be conscientious and considerate, tactful and nice... i wish i could be a green monster once in awhile; then i could smash a couple of buildings, trample on a few people or uproot two or three trees or even get to hurl incredibly heavy things at police cars. LOL. yes - i'm guilty of bottling up my emotions... so what's new?? nobody's perfect~ :P

however, i'm fully aware of the fact that it's not a good thing and telling me to lighten up will NOT work. more often than not, such comments wud probably propel me to greater realms of irritation and though i'm not one to spew forth vulgarities or imprecations, i can still dole out the most unNIce words when provoked. it is quite sad really. sumtimes, i feel as if i've got so much to say, so many things in my mind which i wanna let go and just verbalise but then, my trap wud just shut and before u knew it, i've swallowed the whole chunk down my throat like a bitter pill. *poof!* its gone and all i can say is.. nothing...

i really dont know what chip i've got on my shoulder. wat is giving me a pain in the ass. the thorn in my side. i dont know. i'm terrified to explore these issues becuz i'm such a yellow dastardly coward. its dreadful. i feel so lost and powerless... i feel like meryl streep, in the hours, in the scene where she breaks down into ugly tears in the kitchen for no apparent reason except that i'm not crying. i Hate being melodramatic and i simply LOathe drama-mamas... but i think the time being almost bloody four in the freaking morning entitles me to be a bit insane, dont u think?? muahahaha.

hmmm.. have resolved to get my act together and go sensibly to sleep. am suddenly reminded of katewinslet and emmathompson in resplendent ang lee movie, sense & sensibility. must look fer aforesaid vcd one day... i lurve british movies, especially those adapted frm jane austen novels. i lurve british accents!!!

hence, will blog off and try to catch fortywinks before sun begins to rise in the east... eh, wait, sun rises frm the east, rite?? ;p

it has been raining the whole day today... sumthing which has not happened for quite a while. how nice to be cuddling in bed wif the covers all around u, all warm and cosy, isnt it? better still if u have sumone to snuggle wif... fortunately, my three year old niece doesnt get sick of cuddling THAt easily (especially if i bribe her wif sumthing) and her little hugs & kisses and intelligible babytalk can make me all gooey & fuzzy inside... hehe. But alas! ~ she is turning four next january and very soon, she will outgrow all the little things which make her so cute, hugalicious and adorable... And i will be nuthing else than an old, cranky uncle... *sigh*

Yesterday, i spent my day wasting away at sgh waiting on my younger bro who was warded. darn hospital now has got so many tedious rules about visiting patients eversince the sars thingy and its really getting on my nerves. i realized that virtually evry year, due to one reason or another, i will always spend a significant amount of time moping about at sgh... thankgod for their 7-11 which is one of the largest around and now, they even have two of those! *hurrah* but still, it is rather depressing to be in a hospital fer hours... especially when you're all by yrselfish wif nuthing but a newspaper and an md player to keep you company... am NOT lookin forward to next visit (which is like, only a couple of hours away) but then, cant really blame my poor little bro.. He DEFInitely did not expect this and i'm sure he'd rather be sumwhere else than to be stuck in a hospital ward hooked up to ugly, beeping machines.. muahaha. if there's one person who shud be sick of hospitals, it's gotta be Him! in a manner of speaking, his life RevOlves around hospitals... sad, huh?

the rain has stopped, the skies are a murky bluish color and the sun isnt its scorching normal self; why waste such a beautiful day being all gloomy and dismal rite? there's plenty of time for That later :P

Charlie's angels: full throttle is definitely a must-see. be it becuz of the inevitable scenes of sexy babes in bikinis, the overdone humor or the group chemistry of cameron, lucy & drew, i'm sure fans and non-fans alike, will NOT be disappointed. the first one was campy and fun; THIS one goes all Out to bring it on! wat else can i say?? i'm a huge fan of cameron d in the first place and hence, i'm already prejudiced. LOL. Demi moore gives a sizzling comeback performance which all str8 men (and butches fer that matter) cannot help but salivate over... and her One-liners are extremely Wicked! however, sum pple might find the flimsy plot a turn-off and i certainly must protest at how they conveniently killed off mister thin-man... (i was becoming rather attached to his character.. LOL ) my rating: 4/5 stars!!!

yikes! gotta go...

You are Natalie Cook. You're smart as hell and
you're a bit of a dork. You laugh at life and
you never fail to see the silver lining.
People tend to underestimate you, but you don't
care. You've got a thrill seeking streak in
you and you like fast cars and big noises,
though you're most likely to get tied down by
marriage and children. You're smart, sexy and
approachable.


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"..In life, the road to darkness is a journey, not a light switch... " - Lex Luthor.

---- excerpt taken frm Smallville, episode Ryan.

How true. It is amazing sumtimes how such significant truths about life can be encapsulated within a short phrase or juz a few words... Little gems like these that keep on reiterating in your mind. Echoing over and over again...

i dont know what's really happening to me these days. feels like i'm a ticking timebomb and i havent found a way to defuse myself... oh well...

after bloggin on wednesday, made a trip to westmall to meet up wif hQ & Fizzy. Didnt really do anything much and thus the hours must have been pretty draggy... well, just to me at least. (no offence to all parties who were wif me :P ) Highlight of the evening had to be my late dinner at mcdonald's where i had spicy mcCrispy chicken... havent had that fer ages and it was simply... heaven!! though abit too spicy for the palette of normal people, it was damn shiok! muahahaha.

thursday has got to be the most unproductive day ever... not only did i wake up very late (was astonished to find that i had slept fer 10hours at least!), i didnt do all the constructive or beneficial things which i had planned to accomplish. I did however, manage to watch the copy of About A Boy, the hugh grant movie which i downloaded like months ago and Two episodes of this season's friends which i missed. like all friends episodes, the latter were so hilarious and before i knew it, i was laughin by myself in my room like a lunatic. my fav friend, however, has got to be rachel green (jennifer anniston to the ignorant :P ) and i suspect its becuz she's the most gorgeous of the lot. LOL

About A boy is a British comedy starring Hugh Grant, TOni Collette & Rachel Weisz. if i can remember correctly, it was quite a hit in britain and was even nominated fer an oscar (dunno which category) and i think all the positive reviews i read about it are justified. albeit slightly incredulous at times, it is onthe whole, excruciatingly funny and heartwarming. hugh grant is of course in splendid form as the cliched bumbling, charming playboy while toni collette is an amazing actress whose efforts, i must say, have always been underrated. however, the scenestealer is definitely nicholas hoult, who plays the weirdo-kid-always-kena-bullied to perfection (without being too saccharine cute). my rating: 4/5 stars!!!

I also watched The Fight Club sumtime last week (i think) and it wasnt really that engaging (cuz i kept lookin at my clock halfway thru the show) though the twist at the end was certainly refreshing. brad pitt (droolsome), edward norton (always talented) and helena bonham carter (enigmatic) were totally awesome in their roles and i'm sure, at the hands of less capable actors, the movie wud be as bloated as a roll of soggy toilet paper. muahahaha. Nonetheless, still a movie worth watchin i guess... my rating: 3.5/5 stars!!!

hhahaha.. seems like i am trying my hand at being a movie reviewer and i hope i've been fair and unbiased. too bad i dont get paid for this... LOL. i think i'll review charlie angels FT & the hulk next... the clock at the bottomrighthand corner of my pc reads 415am. Better get sum shuteye soon...

was up at around eleven today but havent been doin anything much. Am really lookin forward to a boring day at home... *sigh* I brought up the matter of blogging to tjay the other day and he suggested that i make an entry daily so that i wont forget the things that i did so easily...

Okie Folks! let's do a recap!! muahahaha

Saturday: accoutred in my weekend outfit, went down to town and met up wif the gang at spinelli's. (like where else?? :P ) so nice to see evryone again after such a while... too bad most of them had to leave soon after and moreover, i was having a Nasty headache so i wasnt really in the best of moods to crack jokes and be sociable anywayz. ended up at maxwell wif tjay & chacha and had an okie-only clubbing experience... however i did bump into sumone wif such a riveting smile!! LOL but of course, chacha wasnt too happy about that... though we were only smiling at each other!! Cheap thrills arent so easy to come by these days.. mauhahaha

Sunday: met up wif cuzzie dearie at holland v and it was such a splendid outing. juz a tiny group of us huddled in one corner of coffeeclub... i muz admit the desserts there are Sinful to the max. saw Sri, cuzzie's "gerl"fren who works there, and she's quite a happening person in reality, such a stark difference from the dowdy minah i met at milieu like eons ago... and THAT was a clubbing experience i wud NEVER forget... only problem is, i got myself too inebriated to recall anything much about it. LOL. however, sumone told me that i was pretty.. erm... "rude"... to sri... muaahhaha. Eh.. waitAMinute.. i'm digressing too much!!! back to sunday: eddy had to rush home cuz he had to book-in by 8pm and i had to rush off to Spore conference hall to support my jc fren who was having a performance. had a very pleasant evening & i'm sure chacha enjoyed himself wholeheartedly too albeit the fact that we; 1) heard that the SCH is a dilapidated place. 2) suspected the performance was gona be awful. 3) was sooo hungry we could think of hardly anything else but food! Fortunately, SCH was quite a cosy and impressive place (after their recent renovation works) and my fren's wind orchestra was soooo cool. although most of the pieces played weren't contemporary, they were nevertheless still accessible and enjoyable... Ate at laupasat after that.. detested my mee goreng kerang but the satay was simply heavenly... i had never really been to laupasat during the decent hours of the nite before and i muz say the place has a certain rustic charm about it... but damn hawkers can be so aggravating!

monday: indubitably the slowest day of the week and i was feeling grumpy. intended to blog but didnt.. ended up changing blog colors over & over again.. actually, had sum stuff to do in mind but ended up... not doing anything. NO surprises there...

tuesday: met up wif jc fren again to congratulate him on cool performance & lent him my singtothedawn cd which i bought at the now-defunct tower records pacific plaza... or was it at heeren hmv?? i cant remember cuz it was waaaaaayyy back in 1996/97 when i was stil a geek. (hopefully i'm only half the geek i was now than what i was then... LOL. ) later on, made an atm card replacement (mine was cracked all the way thru) & then sat fer hours at starbucks wif hq... in de evening, had a merry time playing daytona at JEC and though i lost (i never cud come out a winner in such puerile games anywayz.. :P ) made solemn vow to practice some more daytona by end of week. Or maybe NOT.

And that leaves us wif.. TOday!! hmmm... wat am i do to do today??? ;p

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hey lookee here! i'm a puma! *roarrrr* i've always known i was an adorable kitty-cat anyway... LOL. but i wonder if all those characteristics are true...

its 1825hrs and i have not showered... i probably stink but at this moment, i do not care. however, my face is gettin sticky and THAT is causing me some distress... harhar. YEs.. i am vain and so please excuse me for being a flawed human being! LOL... am thinking of wearing my new topshop tshirt later when i go out. Only problem is, whre the heck to go?? i'm actually getting tired of all this galloping around from point to point in town aimlessly like a vagabond or nomad in some barren desert land. its pretty fun initially but after awhile, it juz GETS to you, if u know wat i mean.

anyway, i REALLY gotta shower now... its so uncool to be stinky... :P

"Running away, let's do it;
Free from the ties that bind.
No more despair or burdens to bear... out there in the yonder.
Running away; go do it!
But where did you have in mind?
Have to take care, unless there's a where, you'll only be wandering blind.
Just more questions, different kind... "

---- excerpt taken frm Stephen Sondheim's Into The Woods.

am very very very guilty of not updating blog again. However, as much as i miss blogging, the novelty has worn off sumwhat and am now resigned to fate of updating blog only a couple of times a week at most. Was on the fone wif chacha in the wee hours of the morning and spent like halfanhour or more trying to figure out what i've been doing this past week. Where did the days go??? i think it was a mission impossible...

read my most recent blog entries and concluded that I have not the faintest idea of what i did last Thursday (after Dory entry)... However, will try my darnest best to recall evrything else.

friday: after prayers, i went down to imm wif my mum, sis and the two bratty nieces to do sum shopping and as predicted, ended up carrying tonnes of groceries and looking after the 2 brats. Had our lunch at kfc and in true-blue s'porean kiasu style, actually shared one pathetic small-sized cup amongst ourselves becuz drinks are refillable. muahahaha. Ate to heart's content but was rather irked initially by the fact that i got crispy chicken instead of original. personally, there's juz sumthing about crispy that is vomit-inducing... Rushed home and rested abit b4 going down to chacha's plc where vampy picked us up. The trip seemed cool of course but quite uncool in actuality cuz we lost our way. LOL. Eventually managed to get to esplanade in one piece where the whole gang turned up to give punkrock a last "bash" b4 he leaves fer Oz the next morning. went down to tabz for supposed club outing but turned out to be debacle; that place was sweltering hot and we left shortly to go... HOME. *sigh*

Saturday: went down to spinelli's heeren to give my dearie cuzzie a warm welcome back to civilisation. outing on de whole was rather... erm.. peculiar. ended up at cafe cartel PS fer supper, whereupon evrybody adjourned except fer faz, zechiel & i.. we made a trip to fetch chacha and ended up listening to faz's sob story... got home ard 3am all weary and disgruntled.

Sunday: am totally clueless over what i did. the memory of that day must have been sucked out by aliens sumtime between monday and today... ;p

Monday: Was bad-tempered sumhow. wanted to snap at evryone. went fer a swim at jeast pool by myself but evidently, it did NOT cheer me up as intended. however, met zechiel afterwards fer kopi and felt slightly cheered up. back home, managed to catch abit of smallville and so did not have to download current episode. *hurrah*

Tuesday: apparently supposed to be a stay-at-home day... but did go out fer a leetle while. did a blog entry too... but overall, i think it was a terrible day and NOT because i was mostly at home...

Wednesday: was at home mostly (again)... feeling moody. Then, at a moment's whim, chacha & i caught the Hulk at GvBoonlay and.. argh.. almost regretted watching it. it was a disappointment (sob!sob! can cry lor..) but more about that later..

thursday: went to school to fetch commencement gown in de afternoon. caught charlie's angels FT at GvPS wif chacha, hq & vampy in the evening...

friday (aka yesterday): met up wif jjc junior to watch smu's sing to the dawn. Nice show. but sumthing upsetting happened after... Then met up wif sum of the gang.. walked in the rain to catch a few minutes of wayangkulit b4 doubling back to PS fer sum air-con!!! then xiaopi came in his van and we whizzed to holland village fer supper...

whew!!! that's it!!!!! wat i did fer the whole week, abridged and censored fer the benefit of immature audiences (or readers in this case) LOL. am feeling lame currently... maybe will write again in blog later. meanwhile, gona laaaazze around abit...

ps: its quite irritating... i canNOT remember a single thing about last sunday!!!

You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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guess i'm addicted to quizilla quizzes... Seriously, they are so quaint and cute, doncha think so??? i mean, juz look at that funny, girly image i juz got... hehhe. it's tuesday nite already, can u believe it? there's this new tv programme on suria later at 930pm hosted by najip ali and sarah sechan & am actually counting down the minutes til then (najip ali is so bloody creative). Is this the life of a couch potato or wat?? au contraire, have not been watching much television at all lately.. juz abit here and there. however, i did manage to catch part of last nite's smallville and i muz say that jonathan taylor thomas is quite.. SHORT. hmmm... cant really decide who looks better; tomwelling or jonathantt, but i guess in de looks department, kristin kreuk wins hands down. She makes me swoon juz by smiling! LOL. And while we are on the subject of smallville, i muz concur wif a couple of my blogmates who think that the show sucks; yes, the show is thin on plot and the relationship/family entanglements which are oftentimes portrayed are really of the run-of-the-mill-soap-opera-for-teenagers category. But So WhaT if i'm watching it fer the eye-candy?? Muahahahha... anywayz, i've always been a superman fan eversince the days of christopher reeves and dean cain (in tights!!). but frankly speaking, men who wear RED underwear on the OUTside shud be hanged to death fer championing such a fashion travesty.

on a serious note though, have noticed a recent rising phenomenon of frens goin thru disillusionment, depression, emotional crisis, etc. It is certainly alarming to see your frens writhing in torment inside but there isnt anything much i can do about it i suppose. these things take time... and as far as possible, i try my best to do what i can as a friend. But then again, evrybody has problems... the older u get, the heavier your burdens and gradually you realise that hey, the world isnt such a grand place to live in afterall and there are just loads of ugliness and unpleasantness lurking about at evry corner waiting to pounce on you when you least expect it. Problems, predicaments, issues.. whatever name you call it... come in a variety of forms and gradations but no one is safe from them. Ask anyone of my blogmates and they cud give u a detailed list of the things that are troubling them. No one is truly happy i guess. (the first person to admit that he is, wud be a great, freaking liar... ) But WHAt is happiness anyway?

"Happiness is morning and evening,
Daytime and nighttime too.
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you."

---- excerpt taken from You're a Good Man Charlie Brown, the musical.

however, this is too simplistic a definition... even the word LOVE has no clear definition. so many words revolve around each other. RESPONSIBILITY. EXPECTATION. TRUST. RELATIONSHIP. COMPANIONSHIP. LIFE and of course... HAPPINESS. funny how such simple words have so many connotations... each one tied to the other in ways we can't even begin to describe. the verbose explanations and the hazy definitions, only complicate evrything... and eventually, evrything's a jumbled mess in yr brain and u feel like u wanna flush it down the toilet like disgusting, dirty toilet paper... muahahahhaha.

having said all this, it is rather difficult to still be able to possess a positive perspective of life in general. yet.. no matter how adverse the circumstances are, i believe life has so much to offer if only we gave it a chance... *whew* i think i better give it a rest before i venture too deep into CornyLand...